Mutts n' More

A Random Collection of Fur-Covered Happiness

Welcome!

You've happened upon a place filled with animals so cute and furry (or not) that they can brighten anyone's day. Their stories are often touching or inspirational and are sure to make you realize how important the animals in your lives are. Enjoy!

If you're looking for something a little more real and down to earth, then stay and read about the life of a lesbian couple with 14 furry and scaly kids who are just trying to make it through life's craziness together. It has its ups and downs and twists and turns but one thing's for sure: it's never boring!

Action MUST Be Taken

Everyone needs to click the image above and to sign the letter and then to spread the word about this cause. I’m dead serious. I just wish that the legislation expanded to more than just great apes. Also, as hard as it may, you NEED to watch the video to truly understand why this is so important. I mean it. It may make you cry, it may make you angry, it may make you want to throw up. I actually hope that all of those occur because those are the only responses I can see being appropriate. Please, please take the time to sign this cause, even if you’ve never looked at any of the others (though you really should sign the seal pup one as well). Please. If only just for me – but once you see how those poor animals are treated, I know that you won’t need any other reason. Thanks, guys!

Great Big Update

Howdy everyone! I’m alive and still in Wisconsin. Yep, we drove up on Thursday so we could surprise Nikki’s sister Emi and make it to the opening night of her musical at school. She seemed pretty surprised and happy when we got there. The drive up was long and crappy. All we had to eat the entire time was a Taco Bell because we forgot to get car snacks. On the way up, when we were just passed Cookeville we saw hundreds or even thousands of Subway wrappers scattered all over the road. I called my mom and asked her to look up the customer service for them because I figured they should pay to have it cleaned up. It was horrible to see because it was like it had snowed. Umm, the rest of the ride I was just cranky and complainy and Nikki’s so good for not hating me. I slept for awhile and listened to Great Big Sea on Nikki’s mp3 player and then we listened to my songs that I’d spent the day before putting on my Journey mp3 player that Nikki got me for Christmas. It’s a really good player ’cause it lasted for like 5 hours straight. Good stuff. Umm, yeah, so we got to Nikki’s house around like 10 or something and Spunky ran in and announced our arrival and yeah. I have no idea what we did that night. The next day we, umm, I don’t know what we did. We sat around and watched TV? Oh yeah, we went and got haircuts! Awesome, huh? Yeah, Nikki drove and she and her sisters and I went into town to sign up for haircuts and then we checked out GameStop and Petsmart while we waited. Then we got our haircuts and it was nice! At first I was worried because the people there gave me an uneasy feeling but it turned out fine. My woman talked about a time when she shaved her hair completely off since her mom had cancer. It was sweet. But yeah, Nikki’s cut lasted for like an hour but the woman did a really good job (minus a small section being too long on one side that Emi’s gonna fix later). But Nikki is really hot now, especially when she wears her glasses. Anyway, after we got our haircuts we went to visit Nikki’s Oma and Opa. It was cool ’cause we listened to them talk about family names and thousands of John’s and such. When we left there we went back to Nikki’s to eat a huge lasagna before we drove Emi to the school so she could get ready for her musical. Then we drove around and went to a small park and then to Dairy Queen where there was a gay guy behind the counter. Nikki noticed it.

Nikki Playing On a Swing - Cute!

Nikki Playing On a Swing - Cute!

Me Being Weird - Not the Best Shot But Very Funny!

Me Being Weird - Not the Best Shot But Very Funny!

Then it was off to Emi’s play which was okay. Emi was good in the parts she was in but overall it was kind of slow. I think it was just a bad musical to begin with (Anything Goes). Umm, after that Nikki and I tried to play some Outdoor Challenge on her family’s Wii but we couldn’t get the second remote to work so we couldn’t play together. Still, I had fun playing some of the games like the Mole Stomp. So yeah, now we really want a Wii.

Nikki & Emi After Her Play

Nikki & Emi After Her Play

The next day we hung around the house and Nikki’s friend Shelly came over with her new baby Noah. He’s a cute baby but he still doesn’t do much since he’s only a month old. Still, Nikki got all baby fever and wanted to hold him and all that. I held him for a little while, too, but it was hard to get in there between Nikki and her mom fighting over him. Pretty soon it was almost time to leave for Chicago so we all had some leftover lasagna and then Nikki, her dad and I left. They listened to Great Big Sea the whole way down and I thought lots about how I want to start some youtube videos starring Spunky. We got to the House of Blues around 6 and after waiting in line in the cold rain we got in and it’s pretty cool in there. It’s like 3 levels and the main floor is like a big open space with bars on 3 sides and the upper levels are like bar stools and such. Then there’s a couple booths on the upper sides as well. It’s cool. Anyway, the band that opened for GBS, something like Scynithe, was pretty good. The guy that played the violin was awesome and they all had good attitudes and really knew how to get the crowd going. The only part that sucked is that they took a long time between bands and everyone shifted around and we lost our spot because some stupid couple that was behind us stole our place when Nikki’s dad tried to get us a better spot. Nikki was brave, though, and shoved us in front of them again. Plus there was a woman there who kind of took care of us when we couldn’t see and made people move and stuff. When Great Big Sea came on Nikki was so happy that she cried and it was so cool because we were only like 15 or 20 feet away from them – seriously! I wish that I had known the songs more because I felt pretty stupid with everyone around me shouting out the words I didn’t know but they were still awesome! They got the crowd so pumped and people jumped up and down and clapped and all this stuff. Oh, and the floor there is like rubbery because when people moved the entire thing swayed and moved up and down like inches. It was like being on a boat! So yeah, I recognized some of the songs but all of them were cool and at one point the main singer had everyone in there singing oldies and 80’s like Bohemian Rhapsody and Summer of ‘69. It was awesome. They even came out for two encores of 2 songs each. My favorite part of the whole thing, however, was seeing just how happy Nikki was. She finally got to see her favorite band and it was more than she could have ever expected. The only part I regret is that I missed that my dad, Ted, had called and wanted to meet up with us. He had called and seen they had tickets, found out the metro routes and borrowed money for tickets. He had everything set! But I never noticed so he didn’t come. I didn’t find all this out until the next day but it’s enough to make me want to cry. I would have loved to have had him there. So yeah, that sucks.

The next day, on Sunday, we slept a pretty long time and then we sat around the house. We were supposed to leave that day but I told Nikki that we could stay until Friday if she wanted. That was, I figured, we could have a whole day or even weekend with my dad rather than just a few hours. So Nikki told her parents and at first they didn’t believe her but when she told them she was serious they practically jumped for joy. Seriously. They were so happy. So I called my mom and dad and told them and they were fine with it. I miss the kids, though. A lot. Umm, yeah, Sunday we just sat around, except for when we played Yahtzee, which, I must admit, is not my kind of game. It’s loud and it’s mostly luck and, I dunno, I prefer other kinds of games.

Yesterday (Monday) we sat around for a bit in the morning until Nikki’s dad took us and the pups on a walk. We walked maybe 3/4 of a mile up a road and back. The road was cool because it passed all these farms, including one with lots of cows and there was also a pond with geese and some sandhill cranes. I wish I’d brought my long lens so I could get some pictures. On the way back we walked around their neighborhood a bit and went to the lake and made Bindi fetch some sticks. The only downside is that we were walking into the wind in the beginning so I got an earache from it. Then we spent the rest of the day playing Wii. I’m not too good at it so I kept losing but I guess I’ll learn if I ever get my own – or rather Nikki and I get one. But yeah, it made us happy when we figured out how to play tennis on a team rather than against one another. We beat the pros! Umm, dinner was something or other and then I tried to go to bed early but I ended up watching lots of WifeSwap because Nikki found it for me.

Spunky & I On a Walk in Farm Country

Spunky & I On a Walk in Farm Country

Today we slept pretty late and then after me playing some Solitaire on Nikki’s computer for awhile we left for her friend Shelly’s house. We got some delicious KFC bowls on the way too! Lucky me! Since we got here we’ve been playing on the internet and watching TV. Shelly is fun and the baby is so cute and he makes lots of clicky noises. We even ordered and got some really good Pizza Hut pizza which made me really happy. And we watched some 70’s Show and the movie Speed which is really pretty crap. Haha. To think that used to be good! Anyway, I think we’re heading back to Nikki’s soon since we’ve been here too long. We don’t want to overstay our welcome, I mean. I don’t want Shelly to think we were just here to steal her internet because she’s really cool and laid back. And we both know way too many commercials. Heh, it’s nice here. But yeah, heading out soon so I need to add my photos and post this. It took me forever because there was lots to say and I spent most of the time here trying to find the best place to buy a Wii because we really want one now. We might be coming back here tomorrow to play Wii games with Shelly which would be cool. Have a good night everyone!

Nikki Playing With Baby Noah

Nikki Playing With Baby Noah

Dogism

Since yesterday’s post was so heavy towards the end and since I’m supposed to be getting last minute things ready for our trip right now, today’s post will be short and sweet. First off, here’s a cool little poem I found a few days ago through Dogster.

And now to make you smile even more, a silly picture of Spunky.

Spunky Being Ridden By a Bear - Cute!

Spunky Being Ridden By a Bear - Cute!

Have a great day everyone! I know Nikki will be very soon! More explanation later.

To Infinity And Beyond!

Today I have an interesting article I found on dancing black holes! Isn’t that awesome? Yeah, I thought so! Check it out here.

I want to know what happens when two black holes merge. Whole new galaxy or what? It causes a worm hole? A rip in the space-time continuum? Hehe. And since I find space absolutely fascinating, here’s another story about the black hole right in our own backyard: the Milky Way! And now for the obligatory beautiful picture:

Sorry if space isn’t your thing but I just love how endlessly beautiful and amazing it is. But of course, I wouldn’t leave you without a cute picture involving our amazingness: the kids. It’s another old one from back in Ashland over last summer.

Nikki, Spunky and I Enjoying Some Dairy Queen

Nikki, Spunky and I Enjoying Some Dairy Queen

Hope everyone’s having a great day!

Oh yeah! Your cause for the day. Which unfortunately may bring you down a bit. I just cried while reading this article. If it brings a tear to your eye as well, signing their petition may actually make a difference. Let’s get that Harb Seal Bill passed in Canada!

Isn’t that a face worth protecting? I love animals so much. I just don’t understand how people could harm them deliberately. It’s just beyond me. I can’t wait until the human species has evolved to be like, well, the animals. It’ll happen, and I hope someday soon. I have faith.

Lord of the Birds

Hey everyone. I’m not here today. Haha. What I mean is that I’m not able to get on the computer today because Nikki and I are taking some time off as she said. But I’ve thought about doing this before and so I’m going to try this coolness out where I’m hoping this will be posting itself. Did it work? ^_- Maybe these days will be your favorite since you won’t have to read about my day to day life. If you like that kinda stuff, don’t worry. I expect to post again for real on Sunday and I’ll let you know all about the cool weekend we had. Yeah.

Now, everyone, I’d like to introduce you to Baracho:

Beautiful, Isnt He?

Beautiful, Isn't He?

Baracho is a red-lored amazon. I wish the picture quality was better but this was taken in a dark room with my old video camera/camera which has no flash so all of those pictures are pretty poor. Still, fixing it up allowed his colors to show. Baracho was a bird that my dad and I rescued two summers ago. My dad was in his back yard with Baby, his pit bull, when I heard him shouting. A big parrot had flown down and Baby had jumped up an chomped on it. He managed to get Baby to stop and we captured the little guy in a towel and brought him around to different vets. It turned out that his wing was broken so we got him all fixed up and then took him home with us. We set up his cage with lots of fun toys and fed him peppers out of my dad’s garden (as is evidenced by the picture above). He was pretty skittish and it didn’t help things that we had to shoot medicine down his throat a couple times a day but by the end we were pretty good at it and he was starting to let us scratch his neck and all that. I even got him to whistle at me. It was so cool! We had checked the missing bird reports around town and found nothing so we were hoping we’d get to keep him. Unfortunately, it turned out that he belonged to the neighbors. It was kinda crappy because the vets thought that by the way he looked he’d been missing for months but it turned out that he’d only been missing for 2 weeks. What’s that say about the care he got? Yeah. Blah. So after they paid us (and my dad made sure they knew he had to go back to the vet for his wing) we had no more pretty amazon in our kitchen. For a more in depth story, you can see my LJ post about it here.

Maybe someday Nikki and I will have a bird. Or maybe my dad will. He’s wanted to start a business raising African Greys for a long time now and I’m hoping that if he ever does it, he might slip in a few red-lored amazons too. They are seriously the prettiest parrots I’ve seen, and I think they’re all beautiful! I love birds, too. I made friends with my brother’s parrot Jackson and she’s really skittish around everyone so I think I’m good with birds too. I mean, I haven’t held her or anything but I got her to take food from me within a few hours and she hardly ever does that with anyone else. Anyway, I digress. I love birds and I hope to have more in my life at some point.

Now for your cause of the day: Saving Pandas

Old Photo and Even Older Footprints

Slept in pretty late this morning because I was exhausted. After that I tried to be productive by clearing out most of the messages on my cell phone. Sounds like nothing but I’ve seriously had some of these messages on my phone for over a year and my messages have been full for months and it makes people grumpy. But these were messages from Nikki and my mom and grandma and dad and birthday wishes and stuff like that so I couldn’t just delete them. So I saved them onto my computer using the voice recorder thing. It took maybe an hour or more so not very long but see, I only like doing it when other people aren’t around. So yeah, I did that while my mom was out shopping and Nikki was being super good and cleaning out her car for the trip tomorrow. So yeah, now I’m down to only 3 messages on my phone and all the others are safe and sound on my computer. Which sounds like a jinx so I’m gonna do a backup onto our hard drive later tonight. After that, Nikki went through tons of trouble trying to get her online classes all set up. Northland is totally screwing her over and there’s the possibility that she might not get to take her classes which, of course, means she wouldn’t be graduating when she’s expecting to. Please wish her luck because none of this is her fault – it’s all because Northland can’t communicate between different departments and screws over pretty much every single student that goes there unless you’re a guy jock. Anyway, while she was doing that, I worked on removing and adding songs from my mp3 player and it’s got a really nice list on it now.

After that we took Akima back to the vet since I called them earlier about her wound seeping a bit and we decided it was best to just have her rechecked. We took the pups along for the car ride and because my mom wanted us to get Rufus’ nails cut too. I tried a few weeks ago but our clippers are crap and we haven’t bought any new ones yet. So we went and a vet tech looked at her and she said it looked okay but they went ahead and put another drop of skin glue in the part that was slightly open. Yeah, and we also decided to get Akima a cone which she absolutely hates. Seriously, she is so angry. Rufus’ nails got cut though he had to go in back since he was being such a baby. When he came back he like raced across the table to me. It was funny and cute. When we were leaving I also asked the vet tech if she knew anything about my flyers since we saw there weren’t any up front. I guess they all just got taken already. Yay! I really need to make more and then get out there and put them everywhere! Anyway, she said she’d tell people about me since apparently lots of people ask them about petsitting. And then when we went to pay, she told us not to worry about it. Cool, huh? Free exam and a cone and a nail clip! The clip and cone should have cost us but it didn’t. Nikki says I charmed her or something. ^_^

After that we grabbed some french bread from Kroger and then came back. I wish we’d gotten out more today because it was gorgeous! It was 50 degrees here today! Of course, I also know that it was in the 80’s in Austin. I can hear Mac whining now. Poor her. When we got home and let Akima out it was funny because she tried to back out of her cone and just looked really angry in general. I made it worse by taking her picture and Nikki even videod her. I’m going ot be nice and not post a picture of her because then she probably wouldn’t talk to me for a long time. So instead I’ll give you an old picture of her where she’s not so… pissy.

Akima Kitten Looking All Pretty in the Sunlight

Akima Kitten Looking All Pretty in the Sunlight

Now we’re watching the Daily Show with my mom and once Winnie wakes up it’s going to be Big Bang Theory – I can’t wait! Below I have some quotes from the Daily Show.

“To us bipartisanship is them being forced to agree with us after we have politically cleaned their clocks and beaten them.” ~Rush Limbaugh at CPAC

“Our founding fathers understood that the guys with the guns make the rules.” ~NRA CEO at CPAC

“So to summarize, CPAC consisted of the deriding of veterans, open calls for presidential failure and the anhialation of an American city, all to save the United States from unpatriotic Democrats. Apparently the only time we have to love this country is when it’s controlled by Republicans.” ~John Stewart

Now I have my political opinions and I’m pretty sure they’re obvious but I don’t normally say much about it but sometimes Republicans are just the biggest morons. I know we’ve had our share of stupid people on the left (Kerry was a joke) but seriosuly, they’re just utter morons sometimes. Why would they choose some of those people to speak for them? Rush Limbaugh’s quote above got TONS of applause. Are you f*cking kidding me?! He just blatantly said that they had no intention of trying to work together with the Democrats and they all just agreed with him. It makes me upset. They’re such hypocrites. What a bunch of pansy whiners. John Stewart is awesome!

And now for a cool article I just found:

And your cause for the day (Protecting our Forests) can be found here:

Make a Difference!

Hey everyone! Today started out rather tough because I was feeling sick and was in a grumpy mood but we (me, Nikki and Momma) came out to my gramma and grandpa’s and it’s been better since then. Actually, one part kinda sucked. Anyway, when we got here my grandpa went to Walmart and Nikki and I played on the Wii. I’m better at the shooting game but she and LS are better at the people finder one. Then my gramma and I played the shooting one and I beat her pretty bad but it’s cool because my gramma knows how to play the Wii! How many other people can say that? I’d bet not many. After my little cousin woke up, he and I played the tank game a bit and then we went downstairs to watch W. We didn’t finish it and so far I find it really boring. My mom and gramma like it thought.

When my grandpa came back he told me that one of my tires was completely flat. Great. So Nikki and I go out there and it turns out that it’s the valve that’s slit so there’s no way for us to fix it. So we put my spare on which is a real tire, not a donut, which is nice. My dad always gets me my tires from Discount Tire and they’re awesome because they have an 80,000 mile warranty on them. These tires are only 20,000 miles old so they’re covered and it’ll be free to get the one fixed and my tires rotated. Cool, huh? The only downside is that the nearest one to us is over an hour away but oh well. At least I don’t have to buy a whole new tire. Mine are nice. Anyway, it just sucks because I hate that so much bad stuff is happening to my car. First it gets hit sitting in a parking lot, then they don’t fix it right, then the skirt around the front tire comes out as we’re driving down the road at 70 mph, then the front light comes out of place, the passenger side mirror breaks internally, the fuel injector gets gunky and now this. *big breath* All in like 4 months. Blah. I just need more money to fix it all up again. Plus, I went out and sat in my little truck with Nikki and now I want to fix it up. I should probably just sell it but I couldn’t buy another car or truck with the money I got from it. It needs a new battery and some wires replaced in it but the tires and the transmission are pretty much brand new. If I could fix it up then I could take it down for my dad to use when we move there but then if I ever needed a truck we could trade cars for awhile. Plus, the truck has sentimental value since it was my first ever vehicle and it was my gramma’s and she gave it to me. So anyway, I’m going to have to think it through and make a decision.

Tonight we made some really nummy taco bean dip (which Nikki posted in her blog) and my gramma made chili. Spunky had lots of fun licking the mayo off of the spoons.  I stuffed myself on the dip and chili and Mexican cornbread. Now I’m on here real quick (yeah right) to share some links with you.

See, I forgot to tell everyone yesterday that I entered Spunky into the February dog photo contest at pamperedpuppy.com and while it didn’t win, it did make it into the honorable mentions. Yeah, there’s 150 honorable mentions, but they said they received over 1300 that month so I feel really good about that. The photo I sent in is one from Rock Knob in Duluth, MN where Spunky was being all super dog and I really love the shot. It’s up on my DA but I’ll post it here so you can see. Also, if you don’t believe me, you can see his honorable mention here.

Spunky Being a Super Dog

Spunky Being a Super Dog

I love this picture!

Also, I found a cool article about a bill recently introduced into Congress that could help save the wild horses of the American west.


Wouldn’t it be great if it passed?

And, if you feel like making a difference yourself, you could sign this petition about saving monk seals:

Also, I must say that I’m proud of myself for getting all these “fancy” picture links to work, with Nikki’s help of course.

Flashbacks

So I went from on a roll to passed out over the past week. I finally caught whatever Nikki had and while I’ve rested more than Nikki did, I still never really took a day to get over it. The first day I slept in late but then felt so guilty that I forced myself to get up. Probably a stupid idea. Even when people told me to take it easy, I just didn’t want to sleep since I always feel lazy anyway. So yeah, I’ve been partially sick for about 5 days now and it hasn’t helped my mood much. I’ve been really down and agitated. Of course the biggest problem is probably that I haven’t been sleeping enough. I’ve turned back into an insomniac. One night I stayed up until 5 watching a show on the real Moby Dick, talking about the Essex and all that cool stuff. The other nights we’ve just watched who knows what and stayed up until like 3. Yeah, I’m bad and generally keep Nikki up with me, even though she’s being so good and actually working on her site. It’s just always so hot in here at night (even though outside and the rest of the house is freezing) and my Restless Legs have been acting up. Nikki’s too. Not sure why because we haven’t been drinking lots of cokes lately. My guess is that perhaps it’s because we haven’t done much of anything since we’ve been sick walking wise. I mean, even going to a store stretches your legs some. Anyway, anyone out there know any more about this than we do?

Enough of the feeling down crap. I’ll switch to letting everyone know more about our vet visit. I know, some probably don’t care, but other do so yeah. All of the cats are now up to date on their rabies and feline distemper or FVRCP. I don’t know all that that stands for – maybe Carrie can tell me? Actually, I just checked the records and apparently Akima will need a booster for that one but Merlin doesn’t? I don’t get it. Help, anyone? Anyway, the vet and vet tech thought that all of our cats were really beautiful (they even said “Wow” when they saw Zane) and that they’re all healthy. Zane, of course, is overweight, but I’m not too concerned because he’s a good weight when he’s just with us – as in not here at my mom’s. He’s 14.9 pounds at the moment and Merlin is 10.8 at only 8 months! He’s developed a bit of a belly here too, but he’s also a growing boy and we think he’s probably end up even bigger than Zane. As a comparison, Akima, who is about 4 now, is only 6.2 pounds. That’s just how Wisconsin cats are. Akima is still doing really great with her recovery. She refuses to take it easy, though. We’ve had to lock her up a lot because of it. Seriously, by the second day she had already ripped out her one external stitch but luckily she didn’t open anything and so far it seems to be healing just fine. The other day she managed to make it on top of the 7-foot bookshelves in our room and this morning she was racing back and forth and back and forth across our floor. She’s gone totally crazy and she’s actually acting as if she’s in a permanent state of heat because she’s been very lovey dovey ever since. We joke that instead of removing her uterus, they added another one on accident. Right now she’s sleeping peacefully with Zane on top of some of our stuffed animals. Merlin, who has been a complete bastard lately, is actually resting right behind my laptop. I guess they all want to be around us today. As I wrote that last sentence, Rufus pushed the door open and came in to be with us as well. Everyone loves us, I guess. The only one we’ve really been having problems with lately is Spunky.

Yeah, he’s developed quite the attitude problem. He’s spoiled to death here by my mom and so he no longer thinks that he needs to listen to me. What’s worse, almost every look he gives me now is one of resentment, all because I refuse to give him a pepperoni every single time he comes in from outside or to feed him ridiculous amounts of food. He used to be happy with a “good boy” and a pat on the head but now he’s being beyond a diva and I find myself at a loss of what to do with him. He is seriously disgustingly fat because my mom doesn’t understand how to feed a dog that doesn’t self regulate. We’ve gotten into arguments over feeding that dog. She thinks that a cup twice a day isn’t enough but you know what, I know my dog and how much he needs to eat to be at a healthy weight. She thinks that a heaping bowl is a cup. Really, how hard is it? I finally got her to agree not to feed him at all (though she still gave him a little this morning) but the amount of people food he’s getting is also way too much. This morning he was given a huge pot of mashed potatoes. *smackes head* I don’t know what to do with him. He’s gross. He has NO waist anymore and his underside is flat rather than having the nice curve of his chest going up into a thin stomach. And I’m sure everyone knows that I don’t starve my animals. I know what a healthy weight is. That’s all I’m asking for. When we left Ashland he was at a nice 62 pounds. Now I’d be willing to bet he’s 75. Not even kidding, I can barely pick him up anymore. It’s just so frustrating!

Last night I had a pretty big breakdown where I cried really hard because all the guilt of my past animals came back to me. I truly feel like I killed some of my kids. A lot of my rats died from lice because I could never get rid of them. I didn’t bathe them enough. I basically just sat back and let them die. And then there’s the animals like Echo and Jingles where I knew they were sick but decided not to get them fixed. Granted, we were talking $100’s or even $1000’s but still, I feel like if I’d worked harder, I could have done it. Or I could have turned them into a rescue where they’d be fixed. I always felt that they’d prefer to stay with their family but I’m not sure. I cried for the animals that died in my hands and I cried for the ones that died when I wasn’t even there. Both ways make me feel guilty because both ways I either wasn’t there or didn’t save them somehow. Maybe it’s silly but that’s how I feel. I cried for animals that I killed when I was a kid either out of stupidity or, I hate to admit it, curiosity. I very seriously cried over two ants that I remember burning with a magnifying glass when I was maybe 11 or 12. What was I thinking? Why would I do something like that? Am I some cruel monster or are children really just that idiotic sometimes? I cried for so many things and for so many animals that I’ve lost in my life. I wish I knew some way to come to peace with the past but I just don’t know how. It’s a very heavy burden that I carry around all the time and it’s hard.

Maybe that’s why I feel so determined to make a positive impact on the world. I want to try and make up for some of the bad things I’ve done in my life. I know it will never erase them but perhaps it will help. I still really want to get that shelter animal site up and running. Nikki will help me with it someday. For now she’s busy being a productive person and putting happiness into the world. I want to be like her. Anyway, on that line of thinking, I want to try and figure out how to put up another set of links that will link to different helping the world sites. For instance, I’ve recently gotten really into Care2.com which is a site where people can make and sign petitions which are sent to different people in power mostly in the US but also other places around the world. I had signed some randomly every once in awhile when I came across them but now I’ve actually made a profile on there and have been signing a few each day. So maybe some of them won’t have any impact but I think petitions really can help affect policy if it reaches the right people and enough people are behind the idea. Most of the ones I sign deal with animals or the environment but you can search for different categories and really get behind what matters to you. I’m thinking about posting links to some of mine so people can go check them out and sign them if they want to. If you do join, feel free to look me up. My name is (come on, you CAN guess it correctly without me telling you, right?): forpawz. Below is a button that I found for one of the petitions I signed. Check it out and see if it’s something you’d be interested in getting into too.

And your photos for today are from awhile ago, when we were still in Ashland. I went through them just now and my heart melted. Enjoy!

Me and Baby Merlin Sleeping

Me and Baby Merlin Sleeping

Okay, my hair is icky, but it’s cute anyway.

Me Making Spunky Do Funny Faces

Me Making Spunky Do Funny Faces

He looks like a grumpy old man until you see his huge smile. I want that happy puppy back!